I won't lie, this is the longest time I'm spent away from my Fiancé since we started dating and it has been difficult. It would be lovely to have him by my side, sharing this experience with me and speaking French with me. However, this experience has reaffirmed to me that being with Alex hasn't changed me in a negative way and that I am still my own person outside of him (both are things I've worried about happening in long term relationships). Taking two months and living out one of my biggest dreams has been the best sacrifice I've ever made (and its been a sacrifice, planning a wedding half way across the world isn't easy.) I think it is important for every couple to realize that their relationship is a partnership of two different lives and not a process of welding yourselves together and attempting to become the same person. I've found myself again in Nice and being far from Alex has helped me appreciate the ways he's influenced my life that I've never noticed before. It's helped me realize that his personality helps me grow as a person, but it isn't nessacary for my growth. I can't describe it justly, but I feel more confident going into this marriage as a wife, women and friend now.
I can't wait until I get to see him again, but I wouldn't trade this experience or the next 6 weeks for the world. It's almost as though this short separation has proven to both of us that marriage is truly what we want, which is crazy coming from miss, "Im never getting married" over here.
Taking the time to learn how to live in a foreign world and with a roommate have taught me patience, organization, and flexibility, all traits I know I will need during marriage.
I've already learned so much about myself, I'm excited to see what else I'll learn!
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